I think I’m in Chicago hopping around rooftops and make my way to the sears tower or I guess its called willis tower now. I climb up to the top and take off the antenna thing and hold it up over my head. I see a full moon in the distance and start crying because it is so beautiful. Vivid.
5.18.2025
I’m walking in the park - maybe the one closest to my apartment - and pick off some leaves of a tree. Then realize the tree is growing and I start to cry. I ask for forgiveness and bring the leaves to a net that is hanging on a tree. I place them in the net.
9.13.2025
I don’t want to share the dream I had last night. So I woke up this morning and thought it out in a different way.
9.17.2025
I’m dreaming of her again. Many times before. On a river looking at ducks. This time instead of the calm her presence usually gives me. We are wandering density. Mall architecture. Rows of massage chairs. She says it is a confusing space to her. I want to know what she means but we don’t speak. Her presense is just large in my life. I remember one dream were there is a line outside her brownstone. We are a theater show in her apartment. Cooking a meal. We are happy and excited. I have to respect a different trajectory. I feel like dreams are a space for that especially when sitting on a decision or next path. It is like our subconsious is doing the work with our ancestors and future selves of what makes the most sense.
In the dream I’m also arguing with an ex. But I forget about what. In another part of the dream... I’m with someone I’ve seen for 2 weeks who calls me their ex-lover. That seems like an extreme title. I yell at them in the dream. For good reason.
I want to go through every notebook journal and write my dreams in here. As a proof of the times I’ve woken up in dreams. But there are many instances where it is just fantasy. However even that work offers some clarity of my day. I haven’t been having nightmares so that is good.
I haven’t had any dreams about antarctica and that worries me. But will be interesting once I’m there.
10.17.2025
waiting for you to wake me in up in real life...
10.31.2025
She’s been in my dreams twice in the past 2 weeks.
11.18.2025
She’s in a bar - surrounded by neon lights. We are trying different ways to be intimate. Its light and its fun. But I don’t think it is what she wants. And thats fine. Maybe cause we are in a neon bar and not in her bed. I end up in the woods - I think or some wooden house and talk to someone I’ve had some strange encounters with... she is crying because “she isn’t cool” I wake up in my cheap bunkbed airbnb. I’m on the top bunk. The man next me is large and loud in his breathing, movement, coughing. I put a pillow over my head and cling onto the other one thinking about all the fun I had in the dream bar.
11.24.2025
Alright. Last night... or the night before actually. I’m helping my mom and her art gallery. I introduce her to a woman in a wooden house with paintings. They hit it off. I think I walk off and then meet my friend somehow.. but we are on horses jumping a fence. The friend I went riding with in the Rockies... Thats at the end of the dream.
But I rememeber wandering my neighborhod or once was my neighborhood.. Capitol Hill... but get to a clearing and see a mountain of vivid trees post-dawn. Or right when the sun is just under the horizon... purplish from the light.. and the trees a fainted green. I get emotional.
Last night someone from college is there. I forget why and what she wanted. Maybe I’ll remember later. Tonight I’m in Canon City 5207 elevation. I soaked at the hot spring in Florence. I might take a train at Royal Gorge its been on my list. Not a dream... so don’t think I should be putting this here. I’m at karaoke night at My Brothers Place - best singer wins a turkey.
11.25.2026
My dream is in aerial view. Zooming in and out of a map of Pennsylvania but the most western part of the state. I keep saying I want to go on the western side of PA near Michigan. Michigan isn’t next to PA, But okay if we go north we can see Niagra Falls.